what might have been…

November 1, 2009

i just love this song..

enjoy!

 

 

 

Somewhere, lost in the wind
I’m watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow, we said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
Promises too often spoken
Are easily broken apart

I’m ready this time
I know that I’m no longer undecided
Don’t wanna be
A fool wondering what might have been

Trace of forever lingering
Drawing me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt I understand
Just how fragile love can be
I can’t forget
Your mem’ry found me
Now I know where I belong

I’m ready this time
I know that I’m no longer undecided
Don’t wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Through every day, into the night
With only love to guide us
I’m ready to go, coz I’ve got to know
What might have been
Let the lovin’ decide, I can’t run, I can’t hide

I want you to know
My heart will show that I’m ready this time
I know that I’m no longer undecided
Don’t wanna be, a fool wondering what might have been
I’ve searched everywhere, and nothing compares
When we’ve got love to guide us
I’m ready to go, coz I wanna know what might have been
I’m wondering what might have been
We’re gonna find what might have been
Oh I wanna know what might hav

 

bday?BAD DAY!

September 29, 2009

i woke up early  in the morning expecting nothing on my bday..i already set my mind that it will just be an ordinary day  for me since truly i dont feel celebrating it.Im not with my family, why do i have to clebrate it?i cant imagine myself eating alone.i received messages from my closest friends and some other people who have been close to me..tears fell down my cheeks when i received a  msg from my mama greeting me happy bday.i terribly missed them.i dont know why how to face this day without them, knowing  that im just alone today:(

i went to school early since im expecting that we will be having our 2nd quiz for finals and we really did.Some of my classmates remembered my day and im glad they do..although i havent answered all the problems given during our quiz still im thankful that i was able to answer at least 2 of it..

i went home for noonbreak with classmates and there, i saw my someone eating with his besfriend.i smiled and went to my room,i dont  know why i felt that way, why im still sad since i already saw him:after eating i go back to school for our first subject in the afternoon.

as what i expect,our instructor gave us a seatwork:my fone rings..as i looked at it it was my old friend.i answered it since we’re done doing our seat work while chit chatting with him on the fone.i recognized someone, someone whom i dearly miss.. he greeted me and i smile and say thank you.. a quick but gentle kiss landed on my cheeks, i thought everything freeze that time.i recieved a kiss.”wala lng!’kainis na man!”.now i realized how i terribly miss him.. i dont know if im sad?or if im happy?

sad coz now i know who he really is in my life and i know i cant be with him  ,or happy for he painted a smile on my face..i know im just nobody to him but  why?why do  he always do something that anybody else cant do for me?that whenever i needed someone he’s always their for me?that whenever something happened  which is not good, he is there as if he will rescue me?

?

 

 But i know, i deeply know that forever i will suffer for hiding what i truly feels towards someone that cant be mine:(

 

My Mysterious star…

March 18, 2009

 

the stars creep out at night,

 like the queries i have in my mind,

 Answers that i really need to find,

  to make my burdens light.

Sometimes i think that we are just friends,

  but his actions are seems confusing & made me think…

“who am i to him?”

Why does he do things which friends must not do?

But i always opt to ignore that feeling ‘coz i know

  he is just the reliever who eases the pain…

He helped me to lessen the fears i had

  though i have not still overcome it,

im trying to stand still on my own feet

and face the fears that traps me in the depth of regrets.

though everything now is like 

what he told me “complicated”

still i try to search in my heart’s deepest core, the answer 

 that  will let me open the door.

a door that will lead me through the unrevealed answers, 

but while searching for it, i find myself enjoying being with 

  someone i thought a stranger that in my mind always lingers..

why do i need to seek answers?i asks myself,,,

 since we’re just friends! nothing more and nothing less,

he’s someone that i will always treasure,

and i will always be thankful..

my doubts, confusions, and queries ’bout us might be existing now and then 

but  thinking that this “mysterious star” who made me smile in times that im in pain

made me realized that i really  dont need any answers when happiness fills in..

 

 

 

when everybody leaves you,still one remains..

    Sorrow, Pain, Hurt..that’s everything i have now. i think im in the midst of nowhere.where i can see no one. where i am thirsting for love and seeking for care. i want to look for a place where i could put these things that gives me burden and leave it there  and i will never carry that again. My attention was caught by a light glaring on me, i heard a voice saying.”Come my daughter, i will lead you to your happiness and show you how beautiful my love is.”..tears fell down my eyes as i heard His  voice. He’s one of someone i thought left me behind in times that i am down. Feeling of unfaithfulness was in me as i realized that He never really leave me, that He was just at my back ready to catch me when i fall. That my burden will be light for He will never cease carrying it for me. All my life He have been there, it was just me who deserted HIM. i never tried to listen to Him but instead i  always lean on my own understanding. Truly, He never leave me..His wonderful love, His Holy presence lets me know that having HIM is more than having every riches in this world. That even everybody will leave me still..JESUS remains…