My Mysterious star…

March 18, 2009

 

the stars creep out at night,

 like the queries i have in my mind,

 Answers that i really need to find,

  to make my burdens light.

Sometimes i think that we are just friends,

  but his actions are seems confusing & made me think…

“who am i to him?”

Why does he do things which friends must not do?

But i always opt to ignore that feeling ‘coz i know

  he is just the reliever who eases the pain…

He helped me to lessen the fears i had

  though i have not still overcome it,

im trying to stand still on my own feet

and face the fears that traps me in the depth of regrets.

though everything now is like 

what he told me “complicated”

still i try to search in my heart’s deepest core, the answer 

 that  will let me open the door.

a door that will lead me through the unrevealed answers, 

but while searching for it, i find myself enjoying being with 

  someone i thought a stranger that in my mind always lingers..

why do i need to seek answers?i asks myself,,,

 since we’re just friends! nothing more and nothing less,

he’s someone that i will always treasure,

and i will always be thankful..

my doubts, confusions, and queries ’bout us might be existing now and then 

but  thinking that this “mysterious star” who made me smile in times that im in pain

made me realized that i really  dont need any answers when happiness fills in..

 

 

 

when everybody leaves you,still one remains..

    Sorrow, Pain, Hurt..that’s everything i have now. i think im in the midst of nowhere.where i can see no one. where i am thirsting for love and seeking for care. i want to look for a place where i could put these things that gives me burden and leave it there  and i will never carry that again. My attention was caught by a light glaring on me, i heard a voice saying.”Come my daughter, i will lead you to your happiness and show you how beautiful my love is.”..tears fell down my eyes as i heard His  voice. He’s one of someone i thought left me behind in times that i am down. Feeling of unfaithfulness was in me as i realized that He never really leave me, that He was just at my back ready to catch me when i fall. That my burden will be light for He will never cease carrying it for me. All my life He have been there, it was just me who deserted HIM. i never tried to listen to Him but instead i  always lean on my own understanding. Truly, He never leave me..His wonderful love, His Holy presence lets me know that having HIM is more than having every riches in this world. That even everybody will leave me still..JESUS remains…