bday?BAD DAY!

i woke up early  in the morning expecting nothing on my bday..i already set my mind that it will just be an ordinary day  for me since truly i dont feel celebrating it.Im not with my family, why do i have to clebrate it?i cant imagine myself eating alone.i received messages from my closest friends and some other people who have been close to me..tears fell down my cheeks when i received a  msg from my mama greeting me happy bday.i terribly missed them.i dont know why how to face this day without them, knowing  that im just alone today:(

i went to school early since im expecting that we will be having our 2nd quiz for finals and we really did.Some of my classmates remembered my day and im glad they do..although i havent answered all the problems given during our quiz still im thankful that i was able to answer at least 2 of it..

i went home for noonbreak with classmates and there, i saw my someone eating with his besfriend.i smiled and went to my room,i dont  know why i felt that way, why im still sad since i already saw him:after eating i go back to school for our first subject in the afternoon.

as what i expect,our instructor gave us a seatwork:my fone rings..as i looked at it it was my old friend.i answered it since we’re done doing our seat work while chit chatting with him on the fone.i recognized someone, someone whom i dearly miss.. he greeted me and i smile and say thank you.. a quick but gentle kiss landed on my cheeks, i thought everything freeze that time.i recieved a kiss.”wala lng!’kainis na man!”.now i realized how i terribly miss him.. i dont know if im sad?or if im happy?

sad coz now i know who he really is in my life and i know i cant be with him  ,or happy for he painted a smile on my face..i know im just nobody to him but  why?why do  he always do something that anybody else cant do for me?that whenever i needed someone he’s always their for me?that whenever something happened  which is not good, he is there as if he will rescue me?

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 But i know, i deeply know that forever i will suffer for hiding what i truly feels towards someone that cant be mine:(